The Lows and the Highs of Sadness
For the past few weeks most evenings have been experiencing an unexplainabale & unsettling feeling. Somethings amiss about many things, how my thoughts are all over the place, my elder boy not being home has made the entire apartment eerily quiet, the changing weather from mild to full blown summer and scorching heat, how though I know its the end of the day, its the time to relax, theres a sadness about something not being complete or not right. My earliest recollections of sadness are from childhood and teenage- during those long trips in summer holidays I would yearn for home and ache to be around my parents. And evenings especially brought out those dips in moods and sudden anxiety about what lies ahead, what will really happen everyday for the rest of my life. Some of these thoughts were indeed deep and too much to take on for a teenage kid but I think they were very meaningful questions and worries burried underneath it all. Like " What am I really doing here?"; &qu
